Pink Triangle

(To the memory of all those souls incinerated in the Holocaust.  May we remember and cherish their humanity, together with our own)

I try to remember
Our humanity
Which once decorated the sky
With Shabbat candles
The soul
Flickering, flickering, flickering

I try to remain constant
In my love for Hashem
Lingering, lingering, lingering
But where were You?
Where were You
When the night fell upon us
Like bricks
Stamping, stamping, stamping

Kristallnacht
Burned bright into our memory
And where was Your humanity then
O Hashem
Who made us chosen
And then chose us for
Extermination

Broken glass
So many shattered lives
The Shabbat candles
Would never burn, never burn
Never burn

He held my hand
Still  warm with sweat
Lips that had prayed
Had kissed
Had tasted
The forbidden fruit

This, Hashem
Is finer than Your justice
For wherever You are
Life cannot be good
Never good, never good

Your silence, deafeningly loud
Was the answer to our enemies
And that silence was the sentence
Of our death

Come now
The black, white and red
Stretching your talons
To the four points
Of the compass
Hurling starved and broken bodies
To the four points of the globe
Come power, constant
Religious in its irreligious fervor
Casting a stone, a stone
A stone

Take me away
From his body
This forbidden knowledge
You fear as degenerate
But feel not so secure
So self-righteous, so indignant
For this too can happen
To you, to you, to you

My love
Denounced by the black, white and red
Becomes a pink triangle
Laughing at me
From the hole in my heart
This grants them a prison
To lock us away, away, away

Cattle cars are for cattle
And what are we now?
Under Kristallnacht's skies
Where glass is cutting, cutting, cutting
The fires of Shabbat candles
No longer burn still
And their eyes have been blinded
By their own fists

Think not for a moment
That you and yours
Are safe, are free
For what happened to us
Can happen to you, to you
To you

Take my heart, and his
And around it wrap a wire
Whose barbs and electric smile
Conceal the promise of annihilation
Let the fences shut us in
And let love die
One bright and yellow star
At a time

What light shines
In the terror of the frozen nights
But the fires of chimneys
Sinister synagogues
Replacing the warmth of my home
In your bed

Bed, your degenerate bed
Within whose white sheets
I found the purity of humanity
Loving only for its own sake
Giving pleasure more natural
Than the dawn's certain light
Now gone, gone, gone

And the fires
Work night and day
Casting a dance of ash
Swirling humanity upon a breeze
Blowing them all away, away
Away

The chimneys haunt the grey sky
Where once Hashem reigned
And who has power now?
Not Your good word
Not Your Shabbat candles
Not Your Torah
Not the nations You founded
For the eagle has clutched them
All in its talons
A fight to the death
Without mercy, mercy
Mercy

In their place
The skies burn
Churning out ashes
In the place of the stars
Whose lights we may
Never behold again

How many men can you burn
How many Jews can light
The sky by day and by night
Dark or light
The chimneys burn

Auschwitz burns
Birkenau burns
Chelmo and Belzek burn
Sobibor burns
Treblinka burns

The human heart burns
Faith burns
And Hashem Himself
Burns, burns, burns

Our purification has been
A trial by fire
Our spirit
Our humanity
Our dignity
Are gone, humankind incinerated
Love consumed
The black and the white and the red
Cast their eagle's shadow
Over the burning, stinking fields

How many souls can you burn
Burn, burn

I try to remember
Their humanity
That their pleasure and laughter
And pain
Was equal to mine
They prayed beneath the same sky
They loved the life I loved
They breathed the air
We breathed
What difference was there
Between us?

We try to remember
What it was like
To feel humanity
Between us
To light the Shabbat candles
From one to the other
Do we still carry the Light
That men pass between their souls
Even though the darkest night
Has transfixed us
And we are now marked forever

We must remember
Our humanity
That the air we breathe
Is the same air
That the love we feel 
Between us
Is the same love
That the light we pass
Between us
Is the same light
That daylight shines equally
Upon us
What difference is there
Between us?

Virgin

(for Brent, always)

I am not ashamed
To write a b-movie poem
In memory of the best gift
A man could ever give me

Let them squirm,
While the best part of me
Twitches in satisfaction

I had taken many men
When I first had you
You had had none

So jealous was your skin
Of what it had never tasted

Your mighty masculine thighs,
Your generous, yielding backside
Wanted me inside you
So jealous of my cock
Was your untouched rosebud,
Winking with lust
As the tip of my tongue
Praised you

Round buttock makes even the
Dazzling moon blush with envy
The heady scent of your perspiration
On my chest

To take, to have all to myself
This one first moment
When you became a man
With a man
Becoming a man all over again

I can make you wet
Before I make you wet
First with my tongue,
And then with my manhood
As I give up my seed
To your frantic grasp

I had your cherry rosebud
By my lips
My tongue could never get enough
But you had never been had before

How I tried to be a gentleman,
To delay the moment
Savor slowly your first time
In love with another man

Your heart inspired me
Your hands guided me,
Bringing my eager shaft
Home to its pink and wam
Heaven

Fast, faster, even faster still
You breathlessly held me tight
As I tried to hold back
From breaking you open so soon
As the night sky fell prey
To the hungry morning sun

Alive inside you
My manhood swells
Against your blushing treasure
You take it all
With lips teasing my lips
With teeth biting my salty neck

You left me as late as you could,
Though still too early,
Too starving for more

No matter how many times
I have you,
Taste you, warm my manhood
In your soft fire,
I will never have your innocence 
Again for the first time

You will never again
And only for me
Be a virgin.

Yesterday

The lonely "floating island" of the Bonneville Salt Flats, Utah after nightfall/ Photo by the author

Solace you deserted me
When I saw his navel
Rising and falling softly
As he slept in disheveled sheets

How impossible to sleep
When my eyes are full
Of his muscular thighs
Spent from a night's
Passionate exertions

Fulfilled but never sated
Ever divine his naked
Ankles beckon

To travel with my exhausted eyes
The length of bronze loins,
Their sweat so cool to the touch
The throbbing in my mind
Far too much to resist

Companion for the night
I despair of letting you go
When the world reminds you
That yesterday I did not exist

A Ripple On Water

A dramatic sunset over the Bonneville Salt Flats in Utah, Nevada/ Photo by the author

Stirred my heart into action
Waking the dead
Held fast in my veins, my blood

Where did you find me
When I hid beneath the surface?
How did I taste
Soft, pink, hot and warm in your hands
Your hard body like a Michelangelo sculpture

How did the sky look
When it fell
Into your lap, when the salt of your skin
Freed me
Fed me
Aroused my heart from beyond the veil

Blue, purple and red
Your blood pumps so fast
Your manhood so hard
Can I taste it all?

Back into the water
I will take the sun with me
When I go
And never again will I feel
Your heartbeat
Being born again, dying
As you fall so helplessly
In love

All I Ever Need To Know Of Rainbows

A rainbow through the Jeffrey Pines at Galena Creek Park in Reno, Nevada/ Photo by the author

Slivers of light pass through my body
A visitation of divine splendor
Expressed in a rainbow

Caress, shade, take comfort
My heart was enveloped in a secret moment
While the Gods waited on the Other Side
Of the Veil

Trees caress gilded sunbeams
Taking flight, my heart rejoins
The Sun God
Amidst ripples of Ether

Over my skin
In my mouth
Earnest and waiting for your release
I taste all I ever needed to know
Of rainbows

Outside My Bedroom Window

The view from my bedroom window on a cold Fall morning

Outside my bedroom window the sudden burst of sunlight captures a purple sky,
Warming at last the bare branches of trees.
The sun brings with it the kiss of rebirth,
And birds sing, reminding me that it is time for you to go.

Silence birds! I will have no more of you,
When kisses have excited my skin by night,
And it is by night that my manhood rises to seed my love's thighs.

Oh sun, I am done with you!
I refuse to allow your intrusion into this tiny paradise of mine.
My lover slept so soundly in my sheets, against my loins,
inside my panting breast.

Now gone, because of this morning's sun.
So beautiful, you say, when a blood red sky gives way to golden yellow.
I would rather see the moon a thousand times over,
When his naked curves pour sweat, thrust and bring me home again.
Tonight goodbye inconvenient sun, when again my lover comes,
To make wet the plains and crevices of my thirsty skin.

Narcissus

A mystical evening on the flooded Bonneville Salt Flats, Utah/ Photo by the author

Where is rapture? 
Where is ruin? 
Down by the water's edge 
I take all of what you left behind. 
Hidden away, secreted in my heart, 
No one will ever find the piece of you I have cherished. 

Water you deceiver! 
My reflection enticed me, 
Before I was swallowed by the abyss, 
My vanity my conqueror. 

Still, I had you.
I married you to my thighs 
And will never regret having burned 
My Soul with your lust. 

Water, I am ready. 
Take me down and let me become a god.

Fortune or Acclaim

A cool night falls in the desert mountains of Utah/ Photo by the author

Sun upon my face,
Moon at my back,
Stars weaving their magic about my contemplation.

How surprising to find you here, 
In a heavenly mirror without age, without death.

I would rather waste away my day in the sun, 
And my nights in the fire of your bed, 
Than have fortune or acclaim in the world of little men.

Stars, my lovers, 
Sea and moon, my ecstasy,
And my climax my end.

I caress you in my waking dreams, 
Where death is kept at bay by the sun upon my face.